infinite monkey boy

2009-10-31T14:15:00.001+08:00

I have currently moved to
http://infinitemonkeyboy.wordpress.com/

2009-09-25T00:27:00.000+08:00

Soon to be...

Recruit C K WEE SIR!

2009-09-04T01:00:00.003+08:00

I admire the people who can blast at their friends because I believe it takes alot of courage to do so.
Can you imagine scolding you friend? Someone whom you care about? for? I cant , for one. because I love them too much.

You're courageous.

Hmm, I wonder how you can risk everything. Or they probably die the next day and you will regret your rash actions. I wonder.

2009-07-22T00:41:00.000+08:00

See you guys! Off to Chiang Mai! :)

Land of smiles Here I come

2009-07-16T22:47:00.000+08:00

EAT EAT EAT. YOU THINK WE'RE SMALL KIDS WANT TO EAT.

FUCK YOU LA. KNN

freelance sucks

2009-06-29T23:38:00.000+08:00

I will miss the best job in my life soon.

2009-06-07T23:24:00.002+08:00

We all have different priorities in life.
And sometimes we may point them to the right direction while other times we don't.

Have you ever stopped to look at what your priorities are at this point in your life?
Well, Mine is a simple one to say that my priorities are my Poly friends and my family.
Work is secondary to me.

Just a few days ago, and then again a week ago.
I decided to feel enthu and plan something.
Somehow it turned out that not much people are keen on it.
I got really excited because we could have met up and relive the year one bbq that i didnt go.
Just a simple get together, this are the last few moments to really dig the roots down for futher friendship i future i believe.

Somehow, everyone believe that other things are more important.
But wait......

When it comes to asking for something, then, would you be running back to us?
Would your priority then be us? In that case, we;re your top priority because you needed someone to help..You?
But as I type this,then again, I think not.
Unless there isnt a choice, then you would, right?

Okay, feelings aside. Someone in church asked me for help one day and I didnt really want to because I feel better being other places. *dont get me wrong, I love my religion and all, but not in the groups* Okay then i told him I place other things as priority to this. He told me that it's rather about time mangament and all.
Thats true to a certain extent but my purpose in this point in my life isnt about that group thing.
So, now im half helping out and half not. Kinda sucky.

Im ranting without thinking again. But pardon my sudden burst of emotions and randomness

I just feel that and think, Why do people prioritise money and other things than friends and family first?

I put my Family and Friends first. that's 2! you say, not fair!
Well then it'll be
1. Family
2. Friends

Someone once told me.
Friends come and go but your family stays by your side forever.

If ever one day I ask you to go for a gathering, Dont fucking say no okay?
Pardon the language it's just to state the point that I do treasure you guys alot
And planning takes more than just phone calls and smses.

It's easy to put the blame to others and say "Not everyone can make it .."
But what about you? Can you make it? If you cant, dont drag the others down

Oh! Drag down...Feel like watching drag me to hell. haha..

Okay, Nites guys. Just a thought. Long entry

2009-06-05T04:26:00.002+08:00

This Year Crowbar belongs to me! MUAHHAA

Okay, no, Anyway this year I guess after all the big fancy talk. Which most of us do.
I only submitted one MAJOR ad work and another Radio script(the produced one didn't turn out as I expected it to be)

And yet this year I dont feel the heat as I did the past few years> I dont know why.

But at 422am now. it's hard to tell a dream from reality. Good night guys! And I just read my friend's blog. Haha, leaves me with a smile on my face :)

2009-06-03T21:37:00.000+08:00

Wooho! Threadless sale and Shopping spree for Shermin, Me ,Sok and Sihui!

2009-05-17T01:49:00.003+08:00

Becoming all poetic all of a sudden I decided to pen some things in my head:

"Life suddenly came to a stagnant point. It was then I realized that the waves of chaos were needed for me to feel alive"

(meaning) To have A little chaos in one's life is good to know that you're living life.

"Someone once told me that if life gave you lemons, made lemonade out of it. But then again, what if life gives you rotten lemons? I say throw them away."

(meaning) if life throws at you the shitty things, make the best out of it. But if life really gives you the worst things, dont just take it all. Heck those and find a new path

I once told my sister this:
" For in time, God will reveal to you his plans and you will be manifested with the gifts he has bestowed upon you"

(meaning) (for the Godly people)..

Sometimes when you feel why is God not letting me have this or that. It is not true. Because there is a time and place for everything and Slowly, When the time is right. Your true potential will be shown through and it will all fall in place nicely.

"Inspiration comes from Within"

(meaning) for those who always wait for someone to Inspire them. I personally believe that Inspiration comes from inside yourself. You just have to believe in yourself and Motivate your inner being.

"Play by the rules and you make the teacher happy.
Break the rules and you make everyone else happy"

( okay hahaa, im being lame on this last one)

okay, ending it all off, I read this cute little intelligent joke

The lady had coffee with Winston Churchill one day and she said :"If I were to marry you, I would put poison in your coffee" Winston Churchill replied her saying:
"oh, If I were to marry you, I would drink that coffee."

:)

Hope you got it.

haha.

Good night.

2009-05-11T23:57:00.007+08:00

Yesterday I saw person ran naked across the road.
Now that ive gotten your attention, i would start.
I have decided that blogging is too much a hassle.
Okay that wasnt the real reason, I have been thinking that if I blogged my entire life. One can easily see through my life through my blog.

So anyway. This past few months since graduation have been the greatest. Or worst. Or both.
I have found a job at the print shop and seem to be fitting in. I have done one of my task of having a small cosy nice chalet and I have gone out with my sec school friends more often. I have been a better family guy and have been leading a more healthy lifestyle in eating fruits and exercising.

So many thing happened in these few months. Disappointments and failures to happiness and love and all sorts. It seemed that I have lots to accomplish and things that I took for granted in life Now they are back for me to get on with them. Gene gave a good point that if life gives you lemon make lemonade out of it. Yes,Im taking all in my good stride. And I also realised that Relationships are very complex matter so im not taking it in my good hands and being single is good for now. I am cherishing my friends more and hey we're still very good friends by the way so that includes her too. I realised alot of things I also realised that I shouldnt be too cocky like some people and try to decipher that I know life through my experiences because int he words of a wise man he said

" My life, I know not as it is not complete until the day I die, But yet it wouldnt be because my maker knows more than I do and until I meet him, Humble will I be"

Aww, Alright I wrote that and it came from my head but yeap. How much do i really know? Not much. All I can do is learn more. I can complain more though but as so far as it is. Im trying to keep more quiet. To listen more.Although I am not the guy who won the most awards nor the handsomest nor that person whom everyone will remember for good things nor the person who is the best yet I try to be someone true to myself.

I also realised that some people are far more complex than they ought to be for their own good and that has caused them, or the people around them to be too heavily in their heads trying to decipher who they are. Im trying to lead a more simple life. YET im trying to be complicated in a way ( ironic i know)

Why simple? because It will lead to my own happiness
Why complex? because then I can cover up my insecurities and weaknesses.

Life has taught me alot in these months and it has given me so much that i find it hard to compress it in my blog entries so i told myself that my blog entries will be kept in my memory bank and my emotional storage.

It it so happened that as I am writing this. I am listening to this song. Damn it's touching.
I miss school and you guys. I wish that my entire life could be studying with all of you around once again. Maybe I should put down my next list of plans so that you can help me along.then we can be around each other while I prepare for my next phase in life- Army.

To be honest I am quite looking forward to it. Leading a life of exercising and toughing up. It makes me exicited I always loved a good workout everyday and I always love to toughen up.
Nows my chance. Would going OCS be a stupid thing to do? I dont know and so i end off with my list and in the words of someone close the next few months shall happen and let it be like " The natural cause of things"

That would be to :
Plan another bbq in a month's
Crowbar entry
Paint my house a new color
Exercise daily and fruits
Have dinner with mum on Tue and Thurs
Earn more money
A holiday to an island with my friends
And finally to be mentally ready for Army

Enjoy the song. Friends 4ev3r (wow that was gay) ha!

-song deleted -

2009-05-09T14:53:00.001+08:00

2009-05-07T01:26:00.002+08:00

2009-04-29T02:11:00.006+08:00

OKAY!
I am getting a little too vulgar lately. But oh well Heck.
I am thinking i have too many activities for my own good.
And seriously I really wana shout out to those people like this cute lil ah ma. HAHA!

oh yea, By the way..
Do not fucking call me next monday, tuesday and wednesday(morning)
k, except my dear friends and family :) Heh!
But if it's for work. Fuck off. Seriously.
If one day I take a trip to somewhere and off my phone and all contacts.
I guess the world will still go round and continue without me
So Why do I still think that i am indispensable?

I should do that, cut off ties from you you you and the uncle over there.

So if tomorrow or one day you call, and I dont pick up
and 24 hours later I dont call you.
Just continue my job for me ok?

Damn,this is gay.

But teriously!
Im needing another break and a crash course to familiar myself
with the word ORGANISE. and PLANNER.
And stick to a SCHEDULE. I should be God..i mean, Good.

2009-04-19T23:14:00.001+08:00

Reading a book entitle "Lateral Thinking" by Edward de bono.
made a poster inspired by fffound and edward de bono's thoughts.

2009-04-19T17:50:00.004+08:00

After a month's wait, I finally gotten the reply!
but not the one I expected though.
It is said that if it is not yours it is not yours.
It's not mine alright!
And they very funny leh,
Still can suan you saying "Have a good week ahead!"
PUI LA. How to have a good week when you know your opportunity gone? hahaha

and I was still thinking of going to church to pray for it.
HAHA.
Think God is telling me not to "ling shi bao fo jiao"

This is venice, This is internship of a lifetime.
Fly away Venice, Fly away internship of a lifetime.

2009-04-13T22:11:00.004+08:00

This would probably be my dream house
BMW Gina, a concept car. Probably the car I drive from my house(top)
The neatness and small cosiness of my house with ample light coming in.NICE NEH.

2009-04-08T23:29:00.005+08:00

and so I have joined the Prestigious Group of Careless cutters!
With Sok being one of the high class group..

and Ms Huei and Shirlynn too. mm
So Now I can officially Design for the secretive society!
But currently, I am a low ranking person inside since I dont have stitches.
So it's not easy earning your place in the society!

2009-04-05T16:03:00.000+08:00

Keerthana is a really good friend, She even came to support my new restaurant!
A Plate | by Jon. haha!
Kiki and Kuchi came!

2009-04-05T13:33:00.001+08:00

Updated :)

2009-02-15T02:58:00.004+08:00

Jon wonders but yet dont know how.
Envies but cant decipher
Tries to be but isnt so.
Feels but don't feel anything.
Jon is Jon but not quite so.
Believes but don't have faith.
If the timing is right, it's not the time yet.
He contradicts yet agrees.
Feels right but yet so wrong.
Isnt the one, but hopes to be.
Jon wonders...
But dont have the imagination.

Or he has the imagination but doesn't want to think.
hmmm... I wonder, I wonder..

2009-02-11T21:36:00.002+08:00

Am currently very busy with ..hmm, let me see website design. Gradshow and Making friends meet making my family happy and de cluttering my mind.

Im not sure but my mind has been in A TOTAL MESS lately. If it were to be visually seen it's like this.
yea la, So I think i'll leave my blog for now. I"LL BE RIGHT BACK VERY SOON.

Occasionally I'll blog about significant events that happen. I'll im back. I'll see you soon :)

2009-02-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

2009-01-25T12:19:00.000+08:00

2009-01-24T00:18:00.001+08:00

niceee

"Let it be told to the future world that in the depth of winter, when nothing but hope and virtue could survive, that the city and the country, alarmed at one common danger, came forth to meet it."

America, in the face of our common dangers, in this winter of our hardship, let us remember these timeless words; with hope and virtue, let us brave once more the icy currents, and endure what storms may come; let it be said by our children's children that when we were tested we refused to let this journey end, that we did not turn back nor did we falter; and with eyes fixed on the horizon and God's grace upon us, we carried forth that great gift of freedom and delivered it safely to future generations.

2009-01-17T11:53:00.002+08:00

Before i throw away the paper that i typed out these, i gota archive it here.

Honouring the food we eat -> Pause awhile before we eat and honour where it came from

Many people fall into the same holes of life but never learn the lesson. They walk and fall into the hole. Again and again.

We all fear change because often we fell safe and familiar with the old ways even if they create mental discomfort or emotional pain.

We fear change because we don't know what will happen when we do.

5 important principles .
1. With you there is an inner center where you are at peace and in perfect baance. This is your soul-> The essence of who you are.

2. You have the potential to be in harmony with your inner self. Or you can block its flow.

Your actions and your choices determine the course of your life.
CHOICES YOU MAKE ARE DIRECTLY LINKED TO THE LIFE YOU CREATE FOR YOURSELF. YOU ARE NOT! THE VICTIM.

You are

2009-01-11T21:29:00.001+08:00

Cant smile without you - Barry Manilow

Barry Manilow- Can't smile without you
You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would have believed that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

2009-01-10T00:02:00.002+08:00

Hmm, i was wondering, just wondering if living with other people for a period of time makes you more independent, makes your life more meaningful and treasuring?
I read a certain person's blog and realised wow. My little world is ..really little. Im like a frog in the well. All i see is that "light" and i still think im so high and mighty.

but there's alot of things i wish for too, and the fact tthat i only wish for it makes it hard for those wishes to come true. While others go and do it and get their wish.

Makes me really wonder if i'll have the courage one day to make the first step in making my wish come true. Because then, i;ll step out of my comfort zone. Guess sometimes it's life's toughness that make it good huh?

2009-01-08T11:02:00.003+08:00

I read this book once a long time ago and jotted down some lessons i learnt from there.
Do take your time to absorb them, I find them very very meaningful

It talks about Life

It may speak to you through particular circumstances or experience

It may speak to you in the form of a person you meet who helps to open your mind or touch your heart

Another example how the way of life may speak to us is through things like songs, films and books.

Life may speak to us through other people's pain. We can learn not to do by studying the painful lessons others have learned.

Listen to the voice of pain! It is telling you you are out of balance!

Lessons of life keep appearing in many forms till we have learned them.
Developing insight will help you recognise the gifts of wisdom life is offering you.

to be continued...

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On another note, cherish what you have this moment because it might be gone the next.

2009-01-07T10:22:00.000+08:00

A bad start to a good year..

Or a Good start to a bad year?

2009-01-06T00:49:00.003+08:00

Empty vessels makes the most noise.

2009-01-01T00:20:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 MY FRIENDS!!
I sincerely wish you all guys the great blessings of 2009.
Take what you learnt in 2008 and leave the bads in that year.
2009 is a new year!
May happiness and all good things come your way.

2008-12-30T01:04:00.001+08:00

somehow or rather,
i miss my grandmother.

2008-12-25T14:00:00.001+08:00

PROBABLY THE BEST CHRISTMAS PRESENT EVER!
THANKS MY WONDER WOONDERFUL WONDERFUL JIE JIE!!!!!!

to show my gratitude im A PIG! OFFICIALLY
haahahhahhaaha

2008-12-23T02:01:00.001+08:00

SIMPLY EXCELLENT

DAMN CUTE

2008-12-16T00:54:00.002+08:00

ME

take the test at http://similarminds.com/jung.html

The Performer

As an ESFP, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. Your secondary mode is internal, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

ESFPs live in the world of people possibilties. They love people and new experiences. They are lively and fun, and enjoy being the center of attention. They live in the here-and-now, and relish excitement and drama in their lives.

ESFPs have very strong inter-personal skills, and may find themselves in the role of the peacemaker frequently. Since they make decisions by using their personal values, they are usually very sympathetic and concerned for other people's well-being. They're usually quite generous and warm. They are very observant about other people, and seem to sense what is wrong with someone before others might, responding warmly with a solution to a practical need. They might not be the best advice-givers in the world, because they dislike theory and future-planning, but they are great for giving practical care.

ESFP is definitely a spontaneous, optimistic individual. They love to have fun. If the ESFP has not developed their Thinking side by giving consideration to rational thought processing, they tend to become over-indulgent, and place more importance on immediate sensation and gratification than on their duties and obligations. They may also avoid looking at long-term consequences of their actions.

For the ESFP, the entire world is a stage. They love to be the center of attention and perform for people. They're constantly putting on a show for others to entertain them and make them happy. They enjoy stimulating other people's senses, and are extremely good at it. They would love nothing more than for life to be a continual party, in which they play the role of the fun-loving host.

ESFPs love people, and everybody loves an ESFP. One of their greatest gifts is their general acceptance of everyone. They are upbeat and enthusiastic, and genuinely like almost everybody. An ESFP is unfailingly warm and generous with their friends, and they generally treat everyone as a friend. However, once crosesed, an ESFP is likely to make a very strong and stubborn judgment against the person who crossed them. They are capable of deep dislike in such a situation.

The ESFP under a great deal of stress gets overwhelmed with negatives thoughts and possibilities. As an optimistic individual who lives in the world of possibilities, negative possibilities do not sit well with them. In an effort to combat these thoughts, they're likely to come up with simple, global statements to explain away the problem. These simplistic explanations may or may not truly get to the nature of the issue, but they serve the ESFP well by allowing them to get over it.

ESFPs are likely to be very practical, although they hate structure and routine. They like to "go with the flow", trusting in their ability to improvise in any situation presented to them. They learn best with "hands-on" experience, rather than by studying a book. They're uncomfortable with theory. If an ESFP hasn't developed their intuitive side, they may tend to avoid situations which involve a lot of theoretical thinking, or which are complex and ambiguous. For this reason, an ESFP may have difficulty in school. On the other hand, the ESFP does extremely well in situations where they're allowed to learn by interacting with others, or in which they "learn by doing".

ESFPs have a very well-developed appreciation for aesthetic beauty, and an excellent sense of space and function. If they have the means, they're likely to have to have many beautiful possessions, and an artfully furnished home. In general, they take great pleasure in objects of aesthetic beauty. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the finer things in life, such as good food and good wine.

The ESFP is a great team player. He or she is not likely to create any problems or fuss, and is likely to create the most fun environment possible for getting the task done. ESFPs will do best in careers in which they are able to use their excellent people skills, along with their abilities to meld ideas into structured formats. Since they are fast-paced individuals who like new experiences, they should choose careers which offer or require a lot of diversity, as well as people skills.

ESFPs usually like to feel strongly bonded with other people, and have a connection with animals and small children that is not found in most other types. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the beauties of nature as well.

The ESFP has a tremendous love for life, and knows how to have fun. They like to bring others along on their fun-rides, and are typically a lot of fun to be with. They're flexible, adaptable, genuinely interested in people, and usually kind-hearted. They have a special ability to get a lot of fun out of life, but they need to watch out for the pitfalls associated with living entirely in the moment.

2008-12-14T23:08:00.005+08:00

Yesterday my sec school friends and I went to marina barrage.Wow damn nice vieww!!
I feel that this group is damn nicee to go out with cos, we're like those friends where we even though got conflict..the next day, we will forget about it or we will "WhoooBEhh" about it and laugh and just be friends again. That's nice rite! haha. Yea, oh yea, we do have some people we hate, but not within the group. I guess that's what makes going out with them fun.

What they say is true, poly people and Jc people is diff. I agree ! it's really different.
Poly people i personally feel are more attention seeking
Jc people are more contented in their own circle.
( my thoughts)

here are some pics

2008-12-13T01:47:00.000+08:00

HUAT AH!

2008-12-10T00:29:00.001+08:00

hide out updated

2008-12-07T00:44:00.001+08:00

Saw this on OKTO channel.
nice show leh, and i quite like the song. haha

2008-12-05T09:28:00.000+08:00

Number of Online contact: O!

first time ever!

2008-12-02T17:20:00.002+08:00

Currently busy with my INDS project.
But it's really inspirational to see great works whilst researching.
Viral TVCs

2008-11-25T10:55:00.007+08:00

Rest in peace my dear Grandma.
I will always remember you in my heart.

In her memory, I recall 2 things that really touched the depths of my heat.
I remember the time you looked at me 2 weeks ago when my aunt told me you kept my news paper clipping of SP open house and you turned to me and smiled and said
in the little english you knew " I keep , I keep" with that tinge of proudness and happiness in your tone.

But I knew you kept that, remember the time when I went to your house to accompany you while everyone was out (there). And when no one was around, you hobbled to your room and took a green bag, in it you dug out the clipping and carefully unfolded it and smiled holding up the clipping so proudly and told me you saw me in the papers. We both laughed, though we spoke no words, we both knew what each other was thinking.

I will always remember those times. Rest in peace my lovely Grandma.

Tears In Heaven - Kenny G

2008-11-23T00:31:00.002+08:00

CATCH YOU AT HIVE!
this is one video that really touches my heart.
Hive is one of the highlights of my entire poly life.
the days where we were just working for one common goal:
to create a better place for you and me.
something that will always bring smile to me.

2008-11-20T23:51:00.002+08:00

Shermin showed me this:

A Scorpio man:

He is sensitive and easily hurt and always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man. He absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain.

He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goal in life. Once he sets his mind for something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it, whether or not it is a small matter or a big project. One of the most successful men in the entire Zodiac.

f he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is.

He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth; even you might not be able to take it. Example, if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he will say "yes, as big as a balloon". He makes such comments because he cares for you, so do something about your weight and do not get upset with him.

If he says "you look pretty today", you can be proud because he will not say such things just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.

He is very serious about your promise; do not promise something you could not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.

He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him.

When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about every thing in any subjects. He does not like a woman who sits around waiting for his call.

WOOOHOO...TRUE TO SOME!!!

2008-11-20T09:35:00.003+08:00

I NOW KNOW!
i have been dreaming about batman for 3-4 days already?
I keep dreaming that i am in the bat mobile. Either driving it or just seeing the interior with someone in it driving. Yesterday i dreamt bat woman was driving it!.

I read that recurring dreams tells something about my real life.

WHAT IS IT?!

learn driving? That i am batman? haha.

2008-11-17T22:13:00.000+08:00

You know, I was thinking, eh, how come my shoe in the shoot so bright! (white)
then i thought what did other guys wear.

LOOK AT WHAT DESMOND IS WEARING!?!!

Slipper and socks??!!!!

BET YOU DIDNT SEE THAT! hahahhaha

2008-11-16T00:42:00.002+08:00

Happy 20th me!

Thanks for the wishes and the surprises :D
Especially to you.

2008-11-15T16:40:00.001+08:00

secret hide out updated yet again

2008-11-12T10:51:00.002+08:00

Yesterday AWEESOMMEEE!!

i think the photoshoot was a reaall success!
Although initially some of us were too tired initially.
But once it was your turn, the heat turned up uP UP!

Pictures will be up soon once i get hold of them.

Memories, really pure memories.

This 3 years have really ZOOOMMM!!!!! and those that said poly life passes veryyy quickly
DAMN! youre right.

Because in 3 months time, we will end our school life here.
It's kinda sad to see one of my friends be emotional awhile there.
Thinking that our friendship will then have to rely on our bond to get it going rather than the school's daily schedule.

I hope that everyone will be close once again like before.
Like in year 2. The bestest years of the 3. And MTV was one that i wouldnt forget too soon.

NOW

IM OFF TO 10/10 drama!! Knockout round. So...let's just have fun!

2008-11-11T09:54:00.001+08:00

secret hide out updated

2008-11-11T00:06:00.009+08:00

You know, when i saw siuping's blog on weird feelings and all.
It dawned upon me that damn, i think we designers or weird creative people have overly active minds. I think tooooooo much nowadays for my own good too.

As you know, I have not been the in the best of health these days and it really made me extremely uncomfortable at times. So much so that i wake up in the middle cos i cant breathe properly.
yes, that's what asthma feels like if you ask me.

I keep thinking, when im old, I really dont want to die of asthma.
It is THE WORST EVER FEELING ONE CAN FEEL
I want NOT TO SUFFER from asthma when im old
I HAVE TO BE HEALTHY NOW NOW NOW.

Yes, i think and think, omg, what will happen when im old!
THE THOUGHT OF BEING OLD AND WEAK SCARES ME
im not sure if there's a phobia to it.

But after one horrible night suffering from this terrible scary illness.
I keep it in my heart and mind and keep thinking about it.

When i was visiting my grandma while she was in the hospital that day,i saw an old lady, think she had alot of phelgm. she was too weak to cough it out that it took quite an amount of effort before the phelgm came out.

SCARES ME ALOT.
because right at this very moment im typing this, im recovering from a flu and phelgm in my throat ( alittle left) and i think, what if im old and like that?

I dont want that feeling. I HATTTTEE that feeling.

and then, i made a resolution to be healthy and all.
I really do want to keep that.

I tell some people about it like my sis, she says that im thinking too much.
BUT, when you're actually FEELING that phelgm in throat feel and all,
IT"S THE FEELING!, IT"S THERE!! im not thinking about it!
just 2 nights ago, i sat up in my room while my chest thighten around me and told myself,
I AM OKAY, MY CHEST IS FINE, I CONTROL MY MIND.

It worked to make me not think about it.

BUT

at 5am, i woke up feeling that same horrible feeling.
with no one around to comfort me, i just had to tough it up and wait till that feeling subsides.

this may be the longest entry ever! But i have kept this long long long inside.

Im scared to sleep at 9pm nap time even if i doze off too tired from the day because i recall that one day where it all started all these nonsense weak health thing with the worst ever feeling i can ever feel.

Now you guys know why im always so cautious and eating fish soup and not eating fried stuff and drinking hot tea and being all so ever healthy.

I know it's not a nice feeling. I HATE IT

BUT EVERYTIME IM OKAY,
i will forget it.

THEN IT COMES TO HAUNT ME AGAIN.

My resolution, Im being healthy me again man!

i might need a little re adjusment to get me back
But i'll be fine, i'll be fine.

Mayb i can make good use of my over active mind!
I can make many ads.HAHA
Crowbar2009, D&AD, here i come!

TO FEEL WHAT I FEEL, READ BELOW
(CAUTION, YOU MAY FEEL HORRID)

(CAUTION, YOU MAY FEEL HORRID)

(CAUTION, YOU MAY FEEL HORRID)

IF AT ANY ONE TIME YOU FEEL THAT FEELING.
PLEASE STOP READING!!!!!

IF AT ANY ONE TIME YOU FEEL THAT FEELING.
PLEASE STOP READING!!!!!

IF AT ANY ONE TIME YOU FEEL THAT FEELING.
PLEASE STOP READING!!!!!

okay,i may backfire on myself for thinking about the feeling.
But here goes nothing..

IMAGINE THIS.
your chest tightens up, it's very tight, you start to breathe heavily.
YOU try! Moreover, Your nose is block! Little air is coming thru your nose!
it's as though someone is holding your nose and giving you little air!
You open your mouth, but it's sore and dry it's never been like this before, you try to gasp for breathe but there's something STUCK in your throat, you try to cough it out. YOU CANT
It's there, it's like a hole with no entrance, you breathe more heavily like you just ran 2.4km in your fastest pace and yet your nose is block. Your throat is stuck.
You breathe with that little breathe you can take.
You lie down, BUT it's worst! you take even more deeper breathe, you sit up.
You start to perspire. cold sweat. Your face feels numb with a tingling sensation, your hand turns cold, it's numb also. You just hope it passes but it gets worst. It's night time and though you know you are verrry tired as you have not slept for days, you cant sleep!
You eyes are heavy yet your body tells you you need air!
the bolster you hug isnt giving you comfort, it's choking you!
The pillow doesnt give you support, it's making your chest tighter like someone is hugging you really tightly!..

...let's end this..im imagining it now. DAMMN!

A rough idea how it's like

2008-11-10T23:29:00.002+08:00

my health isnt so good. but i dont know what to do.
I cant let this affect me and my health more. But it's already happening sub consciously.
need to psycho myself " i am healthy"

2008-11-09T23:24:00.003+08:00

AZHAR BU SABO
(translation: azhar doesn't sabo)

hahaa..went to Azabu Sabo on friday.
Nice meal, the dessert .

nice walk, nice talk, splendid time!

then i went home and ta da! 3rd time fall sick in 3 months!haha

anyway, on a random note..
Loi krathong festival this coming wed!!

2008-11-09T00:36:00.000+08:00

2008-11-06T12:01:00.001+08:00

Acting in these theatre drama thing is damn scary!
But it's a good experience I wouldn't forget too soon.
Give your support! Be there

2008-11-03T09:32:00.003+08:00

POMP POMP POMP!

It's 4am and my head was killing me.

I had a prettttyyy bad headache yesterday

so much so that i woke up from my beauty sleep.

Now?

I'm pretty much fine after popping THE pill.

But i'm still like a zombie.

My mind was still awake while i was asleep. Damn

maybe it's because i have been thinking tooo much. About unnecessary things.

2008-10-27T22:51:00.001+08:00

2008-10-24T00:10:00.001+08:00

SPOT 3 OF YOUR FRIENDS AND WIN!
OK, 4 OF THEM

2008-10-23T00:03:00.001+08:00

welcome to my life -simple plan lyrics

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

2008-10-22T23:43:00.000+08:00

"Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together
But wer,e not "

-Macy Gray , I try song lyrics

2008-10-18T21:53:00.001+08:00

I realised I lost 5 kg while in 2 months while i was sick. (still am..recovering now)

FINALLY!

i gained 2 kg back!

2008-10-14T23:18:00.001+08:00

swee la

2008-10-13T22:20:00.001+08:00

Ladies and Handsome men..
THIS SEEMS NICER >>HAHAHHAHAHAA

ON ANOTHER NOTE.......(TOTALLY DIFFERENT THING FROM ABOVE)

2008-10-06T10:04:00.001+08:00

I think im falling in love with pANDAS they are so cute

sok showed me this in rresponse to the vid hahhaha.

2008-10-05T13:01:00.001+08:00

hahahahha!!!

2008-10-03T10:07:00.001+08:00

I HAVE A BENT THUMB

The angle made between the thumb and the index finger is known as the "angle of generosity." The farther you can bend back the thumb, the more generous the person is. A stiff thumb that sticks to the side of the palm shows great cautiousness and conservative nature with money.

The farther back the top portion of the thumb can be bent back, the more easy going the person is. If it is fairly rigid, than the person is of a stiff nature.

2008-09-29T23:54:00.001+08:00

2008-09-29T00:02:00.002+08:00

2008-09-25T23:00:00.003+08:00

SO WHAT'S PURPLE AND LOTS OF FUN?
play the video to find out!

2008-09-21T12:55:00.002+08:00

Splendid!
the event is going on as planned.
Work is quite tiring but fun
Student Agency is beginning to be a ball of *
Gradshow is not looking good
10/10 has not started
cough is starting up again
friends have been having fun
family is good so far
us is good too

i guess it's the time again to blog about my life
wow, it's really hard to pack all these in 6 weeks but
im trying to pack myself up all week.
I don't know if it's good or bad but I see it as good for now.
Though my health has been worsening week by week.
It's been real stressful not to have a day where i can just sit and relax.

But then again, if I do i can hear countless rantings to me of telling me why am I slacking away, wasting my fucking time. SERIOUSLY! I just want to chill and relax but then again, they think I'm wasting time where I should be making money bla bla bla. I am sick of it. But it's good to be packed all up!

I have no time to ttm and all. and make full use of my time i guess and!! make money to spend!!Good lah, just that when my friends go to different places to chill and have fun, im not in it. Im cooped up in the office with no view watching movies and facing the small laptop and doing things and MOST OF ALL...trying to be funny and friendly.

DAMN!
i love my life now, yet I hate it.

Till the office ends...

Till the Purple fun comes in,

AND YES, i assure you guys thinking of not going to the
chalet..think of this. It's to be a fast 5 months to the end of our 3 years,
it's to be one of the last few gathering

We are making this chalet UNLIKE the previous one with more fun more games more everyhting!

We need your support, will you lend it to us?

2008-09-20T16:37:00.001+08:00

2008-09-19T21:33:00.002+08:00

GUESS WHO?!

yea,it's lester! omg, it really dont look like him to me.

2008-09-15T23:51:00.001+08:00

2008-09-12T14:23:00.002+08:00

Bored: First level visual

2008-09-10T20:57:00.001+08:00

2008-09-06T16:30:00.002+08:00

I NEVER THOUGHT THAT DOING THIS THAI VIDEO IS A TEENY WEENY WEENNNY BIT DIFFICULT.

BUT IT'S PROGRESSING WELL.

ok, it may take a little more time than expected.

STAY TUNED!

2008-09-03T11:08:00.003+08:00

SAWATDEE KARP!
yes, i am back from lovely Bangkok
and i have never though I would have shopped sooo much. Well, this would be for my next few month's wardrobe. We've been really blessed for this trip infact and so much so that it did not rain throughout the entire trip and we did not experience any riot atmosphere actually. But once we were ready for take off from thailand, it rainned and news came in that the riot got worse. wow.

This experience have been one of the best i ever had.
But as always, im not good with writing in words so i'll let the video and the pictures do the talking.

This is a teaser, stay tuned for the complete set.

2008-08-24T18:33:00.003+08:00

You Are a Mac

You are creative, stylish, and super trendy.

You demand the best - even if it costs an arm and a leg.

Are You a Mac or a PC?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to relate to and understand others.

Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.

You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.

A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.

Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.

You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.

You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.

Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.

You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.

Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.

A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperament Are You?

2008-08-24T13:13:00.000+08:00

nice food, Great company!

2008-08-21T21:30:00.002+08:00

Before Year 3

After Year 3
if you are too stress, you'll look like lester.
But get enough sleep or else it will be eugene.
But if there is too much politics, you;ll look like Desmond.
and yes, 5 guys give you one girl

haahaha!

2008-08-19T23:30:00.001+08:00

This holidays, it's just a pit stop.
I still have to run finish the race
(Gradshow)(Agency)(school)

but

With my friends *and sis helping me along the way
it'll be fun :)

2008-08-09T12:18:00.001+08:00

2008-08-08T01:48:00.000+08:00

nice food, nice people , nice place

simply niceeeee

2008-08-04T22:15:00.000+08:00

FASHION GONE WILD!
DCMD'S THEMED PARTY.

DATE: FRIDAY 8 August 2008

TIME: 6pm

Location: TBC

Dress code: Wow us with your wildest!

Organised by the events team of birth(hive).

What is wild?

1. When you walk on the streets, people stare at you.

2. Something people cannot accept on daily basis.

3. As dramatic as those on runways or musicals.

As wild as you can be, be the next fashion icon.

Beware, if you can't make us say wow, forfeits are awaiting you. heh heh..

Can't wait for the party!

2008-07-30T00:20:00.001+08:00

Last year I told myself. The yellow ranger will make it this year's crowbar 2008.
(the image was taken on September 5th 2007 at 11.57pm)

I made it.

Sweet

2008-07-28T19:44:00.000+08:00

2008-07-27T01:21:00.002+08:00

The most coveted and long awaited crowbar awards is here again!

Salim! The man I must really thank for helping me.

Yes, I was damn chui when I didn't see my works up there.

WTH!??!?! Napkins!? Jonathan Wee? Bronze??
SUPER DUPER SHOCKINGLY HAPPY!

sweet success!

2008-07-18T21:55:00.005+08:00

WAYS TO OVERCOME STRESS

1. Aromatherapy:
drop 6 drops of lavender oil in burner
relax and chill

2. Go exercise
exercise help to relieve stress.
Jog or play games outdoor.

3. Scream and shout
go to the beach and shout out your lungs
imagine shouting out your stress.

4. Talk to a friend
tell him or her your problem
sharing a problem helps lighten it.

5.Go to the park and look at greeenery
it helps to relax.

6. many more

2008-07-17T05:13:00.000+08:00

I have to give my viewers some "jiao dai"
am real busy with work currently
Be right back soon.

will blog if I can :)

2008-07-09T22:43:00.002+08:00

ANGER MANAGEMENT
lesson: sing a song

2008-07-08T13:22:00.001+08:00

Reading a good book lately.

It says, if you want a change.
Don't go about making small changes that you think will make it.

Look inside first, change YOURSELF.
It'll make the difference.

2008-07-07T10:29:00.000+08:00

Secret blog updated

2008-07-06T00:38:00.003+08:00

studio shots with justin

photograhper - Justintanwy89.blogspot.com

2008-07-02T23:14:00.003+08:00

let me explain:

yup, I lost my thumbdrive on tue.
Couldnt find it. kinda sad.
Asked the comtech girl and GUESS WHAT?!!
SHE FOUND IT AND KEPT IT!!!

Actually

I called her comtech aunty.
i said if that I would ask the comtech aunty if she saw my thumbdrive.
then they say, WHERE GOT comtech AUNTY?! she so old meh?!

i Said..

Ok lor, comtech GIRL.hahaha

2008-06-28T00:41:00.001+08:00

2008-06-27T18:42:00.000+08:00

A RANGE OF PICTURES

the love for sky

is really brilliant!

to the cuteness of this lil dog

this is Tay Guan Hin , an Ad-man, doesnt he look like that channel 8 actor?

Nic is really nice! he printed this out for me as
I started work at the print shop - Shaddai.

sweet!

2008-06-27T01:25:00.001+08:00

I was looking through one of my parents church friends group's daughter's profile. She 's happily married, went to swiss!!! and wonder ..

Will I be the sucessful person I ever want to be?
How will I become 2 years down?
What will I be 10 years later?
Will I be happily married or still single?
Will I be happy?
Will I be the person I want to be?
What If I could love everyday?
What If Swiss is where I will stay? ( i love it)
Will I get to travel the world?

I wonder...
I hope..
I take action . But will my actions be able to take me to where I want to be?

2008-06-26T02:03:00.000+08:00

Don't tell people how to do things, tell them what to do and let them surprise you with their results.

2008-06-25T21:26:00.003+08:00

let me share with you guys one thing i read.
In our lives, we have 2 circles.
1. Circle of Concern
2.Circle of influence

Circle of concerns are those that we have no control over
examples will be " World peace" "feed all the hungry"
"I hate my friend's attitude"

Circle of influence is those we have control over
"world peace begins with me"" i'll give food to the poor at my house"
" I will work on my friend's strengths than to gossip of them"

This is really summarised but all I am saying is that we should all work on our circle
of influence so much so that we work on something we can control
rather than talking and complaining and gossiping and backstabbing on
the things we have no control over( circle of concern).

for more: read "the 7 habits of highly effective people"